Today is the husbands birthday. Today should be all about him. We should have gone out somewhere for the day – his choice, then either out for a meal tonight or a home cooked meal by me – whichever he’d prefer. Today’s the day when he should get to do whatever he wants, no housework for him – we’ve taken time off work after all. However…
Today is Tysabri infusion no. 6 which means any plans we might have had for the husbands birthday have been scuppered. It’s a reminder that my MS doesn’t just effect me but my loved ones too. While I cheerily chat to the MS Nurses & my fellow Infusioneers (I thought we deserved a cool name) the husband on his birthday gets to wait around a hospital for me, maybe go for a coffee in the canteen. Tonight I will feel exhausted so the husband has to do any bits of housework I didn’t finish this morning and sort out food – a takeaway, it is his birthday after all.
Today is one of those MS days that suck. Anyone whose read this blog knows I’m on the whole annoyingly positive but just occasionally I have to admit that having MS sucks. It’s not the impact on me, I just get on with that for the most part but it’s the impact it has on everyone else who occasionally have to play second fiddle to my defective immune system that really gets on my nerves.
The husband of course says he doesn’t care. That once you’ve turned 30 birthdays aren’t important unless they end with a 0. He also says that keeping me well is more important than his birthday and I know that’s true but it doesn’t stop me from feeling bad.
On a positive note (or two) because there always has to be one with me – I’ve worked out, unless they change my appointment day, the husbands birthday isn’t likely to fall on my infusion day for at least 11 years. We won’t talk about Christmas because that’s a whole other blog! Positive note number two – the drug seems to be working. During my strength tests with my consultant last month I beat him in our equivalent of an arm wrestling competition – yay me.
So even when I’m writing a not so positive post I can’t help but find a couple of positives. Because at the end of the day being negative doesn’t get me anywhere. And for some reason being here, chatting, laughing even – it makes it okay to not be quite so positive. A normal level of positive maybe…
Positive note no. 3 – I’ve written another blog post.